Time changes

Yesterday we attended the wedding of one of my oldest friends. Greg & I go back to early high school. It started out as the typical high school crush (him on me) and quickly transformed into one of the best friendships that I have ever known. I love Greg dearly and wish them nothing but happiness. The wedding was both a happy time and a hard time for me. Within the past year or so, our friendship has become very strained. I am not sure when this happened or why it has happened (I have my thoughts though) but it is hard regardless. I feel like a huge mountain has formed between us and we stand there not sure what to say to each other anymore. I want nothing more than to have the friendship that we used to have but don't know what the future holds. Last night I had to remind myself that people change and this thought that a friend shared recently

to realize that when something doesn't work out as I want it that it isn't a reflection on me

This thought honestly did help me because I am the type of person to think what did I do wrong, what can I change, should I have said this differently, etc. Sometimes people change and there is nothing that we can do to control that. I have come to the realization that I need to stop trying to desperately hold onto what was and work on building what will be. I don't know what the future holds for our friendship but if it is the friendship that I have always believed it to be - we will come through this like we have everything else. Regardless, I still wish them a lifetime of happiness.

On a plus side, I believe that I have found a possibly good friendship because of him and I am happy about that.